Hmm....dono how to describe my thinking n feelings now...
seriously..is..undescribable..T.T
Emo emo emo emo emo..if i can typed out the emo word..and avoid emo...i will do it immediately n non stop...aihz..i really don like this feel..why why why why!? When i realise something and wanted to do it..WHY!? the opportunity jz slipped n fly away from my hand...
Mayb..god is teaching me a lesson? shudnt let go anything that is good for me..must grab opportunity?Biochem settle...phy settle...microbe settle...but..why...when i don have anything to "fan" for studies..but now i have to fan for my life? my hostel...my life..my living cost..etc etc...my sista...is going to go coll soon...parents cant afford her anymore i guess..although i already got my jpa..but.stil..i don think its enuff...aihz..sista sista..pls study hard ler..get JPA or watever scholarship!! pls pls pls...mama n baba already like...use their compensation for MY studies..yayaya..sry for being so selfish..but..already used..!! pls pls pls..let me at least finish all my studies here??i really wanna complete my studies at here..i wanna be a doctor..i don care by how..but i wan..i wanna fulfill my dreams to become a doctor without borders...
god a god..i know i've been bad girl so long..but..i really wanted to do something that is really good to the world...i am sick of the life of keep thinking something that is burden-ing my life..which keep make my mood swings like hell!! argh!!aihz..sometimes..things isnt like what u thnk in life~~~why all the things come find me when things is like abit smooth~~~argh argh argh~~~~~ EMO-ing...the end..MUAHAHAHAHAHA~
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